dinner for one wednesday...

it's wednesday....not exactly sure where i lost tuesday, but it definitely went missing.

i'm not complaining though.

remember how rockin' monday was?

it was only fitting that it be followed by a long, forgotten tuesday.

and a very wretched wednesday.

i finally had The Breakdown though, which i suppose is okay.

i have this pattern i go through.

i'm okay for a few weeks.

or even a few months.

and nothing really gets me down.

and all the bad things that happen pile up.

and i acknowledge them a little, but i just shrug them off and i'm okay.

but then, eventually, there is a meltdown.

all of the little things turn into a big monster. and we don't get along.

today it was triggered by a to-do list at work that seemed next to impossible.

of course, it was possible. i just had to work late in order to get it all done.

i'm not sure why i was in such a rush to leave. no one besides Loneliness waits for me at home.

i really don't mean to sound cynical and sad.

since deciding i wanted more in life than cheap sex and a Godless life,

my prospects have disappeared.

i suppose it's okay to be alone, if it means you're being good.
i'm just lonely and wishin' i had a friend.

brownies are good and all, but it would be so much sweeter to share...