to Maggie,

you know, i don't even know where to start with this blog.

i know you've been struggling, and things haven't been going your way.
you don't feel the Savior's love. and you're feeling a little direction-less.

to put it bluntly, you go through this cycle way too often for your own good.
you go to church, you get happy. once you're happy, you look for love, and then you're destroyed.
i HATE to see you go through it, this pattern that never ends.

i think in order for you to be happy, you need to want it. and you need to be willing to work for it.
the most fulfilling things in life are never the easy things.

you need to turn to God. you need to pour your heart out. as much as you want me to, i can't do it for you.
yes, He's probably disappointed in your choices. but He still loves you. and it's killing Him that you're not talking to Him.

no one, not me, not God, not Brother Stauffer, NO ONE can make you have a relationship with God.
He's knocking....you just need to answer that door.
 (p.s. Stauff told me to tell you to go see him. and when you go, tell me. i wanna see you. asap.)

Just so you know, you're beautiful, inside and out.
You don't need a man to make you complete. You're perfect the way you are.
Maybe you should take a break from all men for awhile.
Rediscover who Maggie is and what Maggie needs and wants.
I know "Love" is at the top of that list, but just because it's at the top doesn't mean it needs to be in the 1. spot of your to-do list.

and just in case you didn't know it yet, i'm back in Logan.
so you better be calling me to play soon.