reasons why i'm single. according to others.

1. you're intimidating.

2. you come on too strong.

3. you're crazy.

those are the top three reasons i hear from people.

the one i don't get though is the 'intimidating.' really??? i'm 5'3. how scary could i be?

as far as advice goes, i hear the same thing every time:
"maybe if you just toned it down a little..."

here's the thing. i WILL NOT tone it down at all. 

if a guy can't fall in love with Jaycie the Savage, i don't want him.

end of discussion.

i realize i'm 20 years old, which in Utah is prime marrying age for a female, but let's take a gander into the heart of me for just a sec.

i have no idea what i want to be when i grow up.

i move every few months when i get bored.

i often take road trips alone or to see friends, just because i feel like it.

i dance and sing at the top of my lungs no matter where i am.

i have dinosaur days. and days when i'm terribly cute.

my best friend is Wallice, a teddy bear.

i definitely walk to the beat of my own drum. 

when i'm ready, i'm ready. and until then, i'm blacklisting myself. 

yes, i'll still flirt. and i'll date. and i'll complain that i really just want to be married.

but in the depths of my soul, i can't say i really want that.

i want to keep playing for awhile.

i  LIKE that i can pick up and go wherever i want, whenever i want.

i'm sick of getting caught up in trying to be what everyone wants me to be.

so, here's my little declaration of singleness, and just plain jaycie-ness:

i do not care what you think of me. i never really have, i definitely never will. i don't care if you agree with my choices. i don't care if you think i'm doing it all wrong. 

i'm happy with where i am right now.

if i decide to make a change, i'll make it. not because someone tells me to, not because it's what everyone else is doing, but because i want to.

i, jaycie penny, am doing just fine. 

i'm loved. i'm adored. and i'm completely perfect just the way i am.