a flashback...

so, i found this little gem today...
Click here.

this is a letter i wrote almost two years ago to my FEC.
future eternal companion is what that stands for.

i wrote it before i met the man of my dreams.
he wasn't even a thought on my mind, just a dream for the future.

he came into my life 7 and a half months later.
it was a silly little line that started it all.
"now you can say you pounded a hot girl."
(sometimes i say things that are really inappropriate. get over it.)

we had a crazy year.
and then we said good-bye.
a couple months later, we took back good-bye and started a new adventure.
now we're in love.

i miss my Andrew something fierce.
(Handy Manny, as you might know him.)
there's nothing worse in the entire world than knowing that he's mine and that i still can't have him.
this long-distance thing is the pits...

but i'll be in his arms in five short days.
tomorrow when i wake up, it will just be four.
it seems do-able, though i know i'm not going to want to get on the plane to come back.

he's become my world and all my dreams.
life without him is a life i can't consider anymore.
i love him clear to the depths of my heart. i hope he knows it.
i love him when he's happy. and when he's sad. when he's grumpy, and when he's a tease.
i just love him.

so, when i re-read that letter today, i just had to smile.
i wrote it before we even met, but it feels like even then, it was him.
and maybe it's always been him. i sure hope that it always will be...
so, Andrew, you can't take it back...you already said yes.

and, if you're a bird, i'm a bird.
i love you, Mr. Self...see you next week! :)