Day three...first kiss story/rant.

Day three: describe your first kiss, where you were, who saw, and how you felt when it happened...

Have i ever expressed via blog how much i HATE kissing???

i hate it.

plain and simple.

there are sooo many better ways to express love.

snuggle with me.

hug me.

buy me ice cream.

kiss my forehead.

tell me how awesome i am.

make me laugh.

hold my hand.

just do not try to stick your tongue down my throat.

it's not romantic.

it's not sexy.

it's just disgusting.

so my First Kiss Story...ew.

his name is Mark Rasmussen.

my parents were out of town for their anniversary.

we went to Mutual.

then to my house for cake.

i was going to take him home, but we decided to drive around and talk instead.

we pulled over. by the duck pond in wellsville.

we kissed. for 2.1 seconds. (without any tongue action, mind you.)

we both closed our eyes...so...God was the only one who saw?

then i took him home. and said goodnight.

the end.

i have had men who stole kisses:

He Who Shall Not Be Named After A Dinosaur

Nathan Wallentine

Miguel from SUU

Bad Guy who stole much more than a kiss

He Who I Just Dumped, Fair and Square

men i reluctantly allowed to kiss me:

Adam Riback

Nick Foster

Eli Guido

men i kissed on purpose:

Devin Davis

Brandon Findlay

p.s. is it hilarious that every single time i start typing kiss it comes out at kill?

day two...a letter to my best friend.

oh shoot. does anyone realize i have a billion best friends???

all my best friends know that. and they think they're less special because i have so many. little do you know, however, that there is no possible way to compare any of you! i love you all for different reasons. who knew my heart was shattered into a whole bunch of pieces just so i could give them out to the really special people?

so read this. and not just the one meant for you. hopefully you'll see a little bit why i have so many best friends. it's not that you are unimportant. quite the opposite, actually. i need you all for different reasons.

okay. if you're missing in the list, let me know. and then i'll either make it right or break it to you that you're not really my best friend.

Dear (in no particular order)

James

Maggie

Josie

Branson

Trulan

Brandon

Taylor

Jordan

Colton

Do i really have EIGHT of you??? holy smokes...that can't be good. no wonder my life is so complicated. i have an idea. how about you all get your own teeny tiny letter! :)

Dear James,

please refer to that entire blog post i wrote for you a couple weeks ago. you can find it here. remember how i will cut you? once upon a time there was a boy named james and he met a girl named jaycie who was sassy and wonderful. she kinda sorta turned his life upside down. he really liked it, Charlie! the end!

Dear Maggie, aka my Amazon B**** (B**** is code for best friend.)

please update me more about the happenings in your life. i miss you. i miss suu. i miss the idiot boys you date. amen. i miss laying on the floor of your office. i miss lusting after Dr. Marvick and Eric Brown with you. p.s. you never freakin' sent me pictures of them. remember how Eric Brown rides a BIKE to school??? in his suit?!?! hahaha! i love it more than anything. i want to marry him.

Dear Maggie James,

i love only you. i love how most of of friendship can be traced back to facebook chats, wall posts, and comments on statuses. did you make it home safely from...california? i'm sure you did. p.s. you owe me an update immediately. have you read this lately? i still mean it. loveyoubye.

Dear Josie,

remember how i gave you a key when i left that is super funny that i gave you? did you ever get caught? remember your little pig Paul gave you. i hope he gives you a snow monster from build-a-bear. because they rock. and i secretly wish wallice was a snow monster, though i would not actually trade him for the world.

Dear Branson,

please bless that you stop destroying my soul soon. i know you mean well, but it needs a little recovery time. also, tell me. tell me! ...fine. don't tell me. i miss you already. and your mom. and french toast tuesday. and you. and totinos pizza sauce. and mad-a-who-ha. not who-ha. ASS-gar. haha. i DID make that big just because it's a bad word. i know, i know. i should be a better example. whate'er.... :)

Dearest Trulan,

i know you are avoiding facebook and chatting with me because i have sufficiently jarred your soul. you are welcome. p.s. i miss you. so talk to me soon, okay? i want an update STAT. that's a fancy doctor word for, "Right Now!" remember how you speak german, which i hate? and you listen to music no one even likes? and you know all my deep dark secrets? i remember. and i love you. even though you're shy and too good of a human. stop being so perfect. you're making us all look bad! ;) kidding, i don't mean that. i just adore you, that's all.

dang it. i'm only halfway....i quit. i'm dumping you all. no more best friends.

Brandon the very Larsen,

when i move, you must come help me carry my shiz. is that bad of me? that i only just want you to carry my stuff because it means i can bask in your glow a long time? also.... cedar city. cedar city. here we come! bye, Lexus! :) and that freakin' picture....with my feet and the sign....i am literally laughing. and your stupid orange chair i kind of love. p.s. are you eating okay? do i need to come down there and cook for you? let's live together when you find a job somewhere far away. when you're rich. i'll just live with you for free and cook the food you buy. easy. now Skankapotomas, skype me soon because i miss you. the end.

Dear Taylor Broadbent,

we are facebook chatting as i type this. so i feel no need to write you a long letter. but i love you. and i hate Jack and Jill who are snappy like sharks. i miss your house and your mom making us breakfast and watching Modern Family with you. please bless that when i come back i don't kill you for stealing my face wash. amen.

Dear Taylor Lott,

you better call me back sucka. i'm going to kill you. p.s. i love only you. your mom is crazy. teach me french. wait til you hear about my FLO some more. please come see me. when you drive back. i hope you bring me blueberries. frozen ones work. let's go to denny's. because that's what we do when no one else wants to play with us. how are you? can we have parties in puerto rico soon?

dear Jordanelle.

that is how you are saved in my phone. because i am funny. and always used to text other people instead of you. i'm really pissed that you restole my pink tank top. i want it back immediately. you also need to clean your bathroom. and please bless you get me something awesome for christmas. amen. should we draw names again? let me know.

Dear Colton Simmons Campbell,

i have a sick and weird fascination of calling you by your full name because it's lovely. please write me a song. i would most certainly like that. also, i designed something i am positive you will find much pleasure it. it is perfection. and you are perfection. i really hope i get to see you soon. i miss you. and your hair. remember that one time you made me style your hair? i loved that. you looked amazing. and how sometimes we just walk around barefoot because shoes suck? we rock. and are individuals.

I love you all, with all of my heart. forever and ever.

jayc, jaycie penny, jaycie spacie, ginger, etc.

who, besides you guys, could love THIS girl? oh wait...everyone in the world. because i am amazing! :)

day one...favorite quotes.

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

— Marilyn Monroe

"If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything."

— Mark Twain

"Women are like teabags; you never know how strong they are until they're put in hot water."

— Eleanor Roosevelt

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

— Marilyn Monroe

"Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square hole. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do."

— Apple Inc.

"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be."

— Douglas Adams

"Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend."

— Albert Camus

"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left."

— Marilyn Monroe

"People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.

If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.

If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.

The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.

For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway."

— Mother Teresa

"There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment."

— Sarah Dessen

"We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are."

— Anaïs Nin

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage."

— Laozi

"I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close."

— Pablo Neruda

"If you can't explain it to a six year old, you don't understand it yourself."

— Albert Einstein

"I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love."

— Marilyn Monroe

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

— Marianne Williamson

"Fairy tales are more than true; not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten."

— G.K. Chesterton

"You have to write the book that wants to be written. And if the book will be too difficult for grown-ups, then you write it for children."

— Madeleine L'Engle

"Tis better to have loved and lost

Than never to have loved at all."

— Alfred Lord Tennyson

"To love would be an awfully big adventure."

— J.M. Barrie

"I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."

— Audrey Hepburn

"She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad. And that’s important—you know. "

— Marilyn Monroe

"For one who reads, there is no limit to the number of lives that may be lived, for fiction, biography, and history offer an inexhaustible number of lives in many parts of the world, in all periods of time."

— Louis L'Amour

"There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed."

— Ernest Hemingway

"For instance, on the planet Earth, man had always assumed that he was more intelligent than dolphins because he had achieved so much—the wheel, New York, wars and so on—whilst all the dolphins had ever done was muck about in the water having a good time. But conversely, the dolphins had always believed that they were far more intelligent than man—for precisely the same reasons."

— Douglas Adams

"For Attractive lips, speak words of kindness.

 For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.

 For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.

 For beautiful hair, let a child run their fingers through it once a day.

 For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.

 People, more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms.

 As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself and the other for helping others."

— Audrey Hepburn

"I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing."

— Neil Gaiman

"It's often just enough to be with someone. I don't need to touch them. Not even talk. A feeling passes between you both. You're not alone."

— Marilyn Monroe

"The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple."

— Oscar Wilde

"I wish it need not have happened in my time," said Frodo.

"So do I," said Gandalf, "and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us."

— J.R.R. Tolkien

"If we knew what it was we were doing, it would not be called research, would it?"

— Albert Einstein

"Have you fallen in love with the wrong person yet?'

Jace said, "Unfortunately, Lady of the Haven, my one true love remains myself."

..."At least," she said, "you don't have to worry about rejection, Jace Wayland."

"Not necessarily. I turn myself down occasionally, just to keep it interesting."

— Cassandra Clare

"Wrinkles should merely indicate where the smiles have been."

— Mark Twain

"Every child is an artist. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up."

— Pablo Picasso

you know i could go on forever...but i'll stop for now.

how did i do today, on Day One?

Bob Marley the deep said...

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

a ten day blogging challenge.

i've been very negligent of my blog most of the year. i ALWAYS have things to write. i just never get around to doing it.

i found this list and think it will be a good way to reconnect with my blog.

so, every day for the next ten days, i will blog. and then hopefully more frequently after that!

Day One: Your favorite quotes.

Day Two: A letter to your best friend.

Day Three: Describe your first kiss, where you were, who saw and how you felt when it happened.

Day Four: Tell the story of your favorite memory.

Day Five: Three things that you’ve done in your life that you regret doing / not doing.
Day Six: Three things that you wish you could do right now.

Day Seven: Your favorite TV show, movie, song and book.

Day Eight: Write a letter to someone that you’ve drifted away from and now miss.

Day Nine: Five items you’d grab in a fire.

Day Ten: The hardest thing you’ve ever had to do.

Dear Maggie James,

i really detest that you demanded a blog post from me.

it's not fair.

i can't write when told to write.

it has to be because i want to.

that being said, i love you very deeply.

and you deserve the very best in life.

please, Maggie Dear, don't settle for any man.

wait for the one who wants you because you're perfect just the way you are.

don't change anything for anyone.

don't change the way you look, the way you think, your dreams.

because the perfect man will love all those things about you.

keep smiling because it's important.

keep laughing because it makes you look more like yourself.

keep dreaming. the sky is the limit.

and most of all, keep loving. because without love, life is a little futile.

girl, you're amazing. just the way you are.

minus the fact that you love glee. because glee has gotten dumb.

i love you! :)

yours truly,

jaycie penny

my heart tonight...

i realize this was all self-inflicted, but it hurts nonetheless.

my heart is quietly breaking, so please be gentle with me...

i know i come across as brave and strong, but right now, i am not.

so please, please be gentle with me.

dear james,

if it weren't for the sake of your homepage, i'd have no reason to write you this letter.

as you read this, you're probably missing me.

it's probably after your bedtime.

and you're probably putting off some important reading for school.

but, for just a few moments, you get to indulge in all things ME.

which i know for a fact you are obsessed with.

you know how i know?

because of our secret code:

no one knows why we do this. only us. because we are secretly more cool that Spiderman.

i also know because of the way your face just lights up when you see me.

and how you hug me every single time i need one.

and you just know when i need them. without even having to be told.

and how you don't know it yet, but you're craving a new Jaycie cd.

because let's face it, they're the best.

is it true James? am i really your one true BFF?

oh...yes, that!

so on this, the ninth day of november, i must tell you a few things.

1. stop wearing cologne. it always throws me off. it makes you smell not like you?

2. boy, i will CUT you. don't ina-rupt. roo!

3. when we get married in 6 and a half years, let's have a white picket fence.

4. can you pretty please leave me a voicemail soon? so in case of an emergency i can still listen to you?

5. remember that one time you were in the freezer and you made me go get you a pita? and i left a tip because i had to sign for your card? well that wasn't the point. the point is that you were in the freezer. and i was very quiet for once in my life and you literally jumped a foot in the air because i scared you to death! :) i miss that day.

6. please bless that Crazy Tammie doesn't give up on us. we absolutely must go to some crazy yoga or dancing something soon so she keeps loving us. it keeps our life interesting, you know.

7. let's watch madagascar soon.

8. remember how you loved my long curly hair? i'm growing it out. just you watch me.

9. i hate amaretto ice cream. i love that you love it.

10. you know that red hoodie of yours? i want it back. and i want it to smell like you when you give it back to me.

11. how's couch to 5k going? probably badly, if i were to guess.

12. get some fivefingers soon. you've been wanting them for practically forever.

13. no-eating-out october is over. so you owe me some old grist mill soup soon.

14. your kinda favorite color is green.

15. you're kinda my favorite.

16. i feel like you should create for me the next pms ice cream.

17. my birthday is the 17th of february. you always forget it. and i always forget your birthday which is on september the 10th. this is okay. because that's just how we roll.

18. you should probably find a house where you can have a puppy. so i can get me one and leave it at your house. thank you.

19. ouch Charlie! owwww.....

charlie bit me. and that really hurt charlie and it's still...hurting.

20. remember how i'm the poorest human? so i need to sell my plasma and donate my eggs? only not the eggs part. because i'm not 21.

21. this is you. and THIS is your badness level. it's unusually high for someone your size.

22. i can't believe you are...hold that thought. angelina jolie and johnny depp are starring in a movie together. it's coming out. i wanna see it way way bad.

23. okay. i can't believe you are....shoot. i can't even remember what i was going to say.

24. i love your teeth. more specifically i love your teeth when you're asking me if you have anything stuck in them.

25. let's go shopping. you need some designer jeans. i promise you won't spend under 100 dollars. and you'll love them. everyone will lust after you.

26. just marry me. and simplify my life. p.s. i'm going to keep begging you until you just say yes.

once upon a time there was a boy. his name was james.

then he met a girl. her name was jaycie.

they became best friends. and they'll get married on october 11th, 2016?

assuming James the boy isn't already taken off the market.

the end.

jamesy, i love you. please keep loving me. forever and ever.

even when i bug your life and bite you on the fingers through your shirt when i'm really just trying to bite your shoulder.

and especially when i'm wreaking havoc on your life, like i always am.

and when i kick you and make your knees buckle.

just please keep loving me.

d'accord?

d'accord! :)

i love you beaucoup de chose! :)