hey you. yes, you. keep reading.

dear super awesome guy who does everything for everyone all the time,

you don't always have to be the strongest human ever. even though you think you do.
you don't have to pretend you're okay and like you have everything under control.
you can stick up for yourself. you don't have to let everyone walk all over you.

you can admit defeat sometimes. and it's not illegal to take a couple days off when you need a breather.
you don't have to hold it all in. i'll always listen. and if you don't wanna talk to me, talk to someone. i'm tough, and honestly your stuff is easier for me to deal with than mine. besides, mine gets boring.
it's not healthy to keep it all in though, i promise.

you've got millions and billions of responsibilities. you wake up early and go to school, then work. and then do it all again. you try to see your favorite people. and you have that other job that steals you away for a weekend every month. you go to school four days, work five, and they overlap weird, so you have some type of responsibility six days a week.

no one tells you how great you are. you probably don't tell many people all the things you do all the time. so when they make demands, they don't know the load they're adding to. you don't tell people no. maybe sometimes you should...

i could go on forever, you know that because you listen to me all the time. i won't. just please don't forget how amazing you are. no one tells you that. i'll tell you every single day, if it'll help. you honestly have one of the most beautiful, brilliant souls. please don't let anyone every dim that light. you have a lot you can give.

don't give it freely though.
only give yourself to people who will actually appreciate what you do, instead of the ones who find new ways to use and abuse you.

you've changed my life, you know. just by being you. take it for what it is, just words on a page. but you know me, i think. more than anyone really does these days...you care for reasons i can't imagine or possibly begin to understand. you know my heart, the pieces i willingly show you and the ones you sometimes surprise out of me. i meant everything i said.

you haven't left yet, which is lucky for me. especially considering how often i turn into a sass ass, just to irritate you. just so you know, i'm not going anywhere either. until you tell me you don't want anything from me, i'm here. you don't scare me.

rambling. that's what i'm doing now. i'll stop.
but seriously. you're perfect, imperfections and all.

sincerely/love,
jayc,  your coldstone savage princess.

in the nick of time...

i made a promise to my favorite customer of the day today.
his name is Zack, and he's great. located in somwhere-i-should-have-known, ohio.
honestly, i'd never heard of the teeny place, but he said it's a big deal!
i promised him to write a blog by 11 p.m. his time, which is in 6 minutes, my time.

you know how some people just make your day? well, he made mine.
he called in because the internet in a hotel was down. and they had no access to the room where the modem was located....
when i hear that in the call, it becomes silent. you can hear crickets in neighboring states.

i can't troubleshoot a modem if you can't access it...

i told him a story of a man who made me reset the modem eight times, before it finally reset.
and then i reset his. it NEVER works remotely...

first try, SUCCESS!
it kept timing out though, so i tried it again and again and again.
and while it kept timing out, we kept talking.

something came up about me needing to lose 15 pounds, but how i'm hot. then i had to prove it, so i referred him to my blog. obviously, i was right. i don't need to lose 15 pounds!

then i found out he wasn't even there!!! he was just calling because he felt bad for them in this teeny little town in Michigan on a Thursday night at 7:30 with nothing better to do than play Happy Aquarium on facebook.

he teased my name. "Your parents honestly named you Jaycie Penny?"
me, "yes."
him, "That's so awesome!"

well, yes. they are super geniuses, in my humble opinion.

just for the record Zack, a mocha frappaccino with toffee nut syrup and the whipped cream mixed in is definitely like Christmas in a cup!

he thought it was weird that i wasn't wearing shoes or socks at work...it's not weird! my piggies just like to be naked!

long story short, and even less time for me to post this, he had the funnest laugh and was by far the best customer to talk to.

oh yes, i also saved the day! after like, 22 resets of the modem, it came back up online!
normally, i reserve being a superhero for Tuesdays and bank holidays.

i just made an exception for him because he had a cute laugh. and that he laughed at my lame jokes in the first place!

a moment.

i remember this one time you were looking at getting a new car.
you looked at tons and tons and finally settled on a Dodge Caliber.
you let me pick the color and everything.
you never bought it, but it was fun to play pretend.
now here i am, four years later, in a Dodge Caliber. i'm thinking about buying a new car.
natrually, it will have to be one we never talked about because i still can't sit in here without thinking of you...

four months, 22 days.

144 days.
3,456 hours.
207,360 minutes.
12,441,600 seconds.

you get it. well...that's how long i've got before i turn 21.

remember this blog?

i wrote it 1 year, 3 months, and 9 days ago. 466 days. let's have a progress report, okay? see how i'm doing thus far.

1. lose 21 pounds. although, if this only ends up being 2.1 pounds, i might be okay with that. 

damn it. i've actually gained a few pounds. so i guess in reality now i need to lose like, 27 pounds.

2. take silly photos in a photobooth with my bff Brandon the very Larsen.

brandon, what do you say??? maybe i'll do these myself. or just with tons of people. this is soooo doable.

3. go fishin'. i've never been fishing, but i've always wanted to!

i don't know any fishermen. well, i know one, but i'm not asking. it would be weird. any volunteers?

4. have a hobo roadtrip and spend a night in the Redwood Forest! check! :)

hmmm. done. i will not be divulging details. suffice it to say, i have done this one.

5. kiss a complete stranger.

i don't know any strangers. i'll work on this one, but i have a feeling it'll require some serious lady balls.

6. eat squab. i don't know what "squab" is, but i'm sooo tryin' it. they talk about it on the Food Network all the time.

i'm still planning on doing this. Handy Manny actually agreed that we can try it next time i go see him.

7. successfully complete p90x. (in the designated 90 days.)

i did p90x for 3 weeks. that's 21 days. i wanted to shoot myself in the face. but since i'm obsessed with infomercials, i found something better. it's called Turbo Fire and it's by the same company. i'll do 90 days of that instead! i'm actually starting that very thing tomorrow. just because i have this silly superstition about starting diet/exercise plans on mondays.

8. be a rebel and get a real tattoo. okay, a real henna tattoo....

i have it planned. just need to execute. it's going to be sooo cute. 

9. buy a cactus and watch that sucker grow. no way is that thing dyin' on my watch! check! :)

hells yeah! Mervin's been in my life since....i was looking for blog, but i never wrote it. Mervin here is the Break-Up cactus. he's been in my life since February, i think. we've got a good 7 months in! we've had a few close calls, but he's thriving!

10. take or be in a picture every day for an entire month. just to remember the days between.

i don't want to do this one...sigh. but i will. i'm pretty sure i've done this in various pictures for Handy Manny, but one can't be sure. the point was to facebook/blog them anyways. i'll work on it.

11. gulp. go on 21 dates...(i have a feeling i'll come to regret this one...) check! :)

i'm nearly positive i've been on at least that many dates in the past year and a half. if i haven't, oh well. not super into dating at the current time, so i'm at peace with this goal.

12. spend the summer of '11 in a far away place...working, adventuring, etc. check! :)

i spent the last four months of 2010 and the first four of 2011 in the slc area. i don't think that counts. but i'm making a big move next spring anyways, to an unknown destination, so we'll take it.

13. volunteer in a soup kitchen.

i should have done this already...shame on me. i donate to food pantries all the time.  i can have half a point. but i still want to do it.

14. find the perfect pair of jeans and buy them without batting an eyelash.

hmmm. this could be argued in either direction. i'm going to vote that i still need to find them.

15. trade in facebook for the self-realization and peace that comes through the practice of zen...this shall occur for just ONE month.

okay, okay. i need to do this. i actually don't think it'll kill me. so maybe i'll start that soon.

16. get a kit and learn how to make balloon animals.

i still want to do this. i need to do it. my mom has a kit. i'm soooo going to ask her if i can borrow it.

17. have an Oscar Meyer Weiner-mobile experience....preferably ride in it, but i'll settle for just a pic.

i actually saw it at the North Logan Wal-Mart, but i forgot to take a pic. i'll find it again, you mark my words.

18. go to the ocean and play with REAL sea stars in the tide pools! (they are my favorite animal of course!)

this should probably just be part of the Price Is Right adventure. 

19. for those of you who are cache valley natives, you'll know what i mean by saying i shall Clean The Sink by myself! check! :)

i didn't do this. and i will not be doing it. it's too much ice cream. i don't even like ice cream that much anymore....

20. ride on a San Francisco trolley while hangin' off the back and singing the Rice-A-Roni theme song....

i want to do this still. not sure when i'll ever be in SanFran, but we'll see. don't hold your breath though.

21. it is my wildest dream to be a contestant on The Price is Right!

i bet i could find tickets and be a birthday princess on the Price is Right on my very 21st birthday...i'm going to look into that! 

all in all, it's not going so good. i'll work on it. for now, i have a mexican food date with my single's ward. adios, amigos!

with my favorite holiday just around the corner...

i've been getting SOOOO excited for Halloween.

it's probably my favorite holiday.

this year, Wallice is going to be a....<drum roll, please!>
ROBOT!!!

and i'm going to be a ballerina princess.

we're very excited. in case you didn't know.

we made sugar cookies last week.
and hauled all of the decorations upstairs so my mom could decorate our house.

'tis the season, my friends...